Jess Posted September 30, 2006 Report Posted September 30, 2006 I'd freak if I saw any kind of animal on the stairs! So glad my Dad doesn't work with animals, that's just the kind of thing he'd do if he did! Our house is just full of metal pipe and pictures of the insides of cars!
Marieh Posted September 30, 2006 Report Posted September 30, 2006 Crab and Fish isn't animals ;) *sorry*
Jess Posted September 30, 2006 Report Posted September 30, 2006 What?! They were last time I looked....
Jackieleanne Posted October 1, 2006 Report Posted October 1, 2006 Argh that just reminds me about our holiday me and my sister had returned to our room one night at about 1am after a huge tropical storm I was sat on my bed and went to put my foot down and their was this huge crab I seriously screamed like hell and just jumped back up on the bed then we was texting my mum and dad in the next room to come and kill it.
MarMar Posted October 2, 2006 Report Posted October 2, 2006 I just have to vent a bit, and most of you have been nice to me before. I don't want sympathy, just a place to get things off my chest. There is a sale at my uni bookstore this week and next, and therefore I ventured up there in between lectures today and got many books, even two on depression. I started reading one of them this afternoon, Andrew Solomon's Noonday Demon. Haven't gotten past the first hundred pages, but it's the first thing I haven't had to force myself to read in ages, including curricular literature - for the last 6-12 months, I have hardly read any fiction or non-fiction that I haven't had to read in order to pass my exams. I haven't painted or done anything remotely artistic - I started a new painting last Friday, on a huge canvas, sort of trying to scare myself into covering it with paint, but I soon gave up, and now my failure is staring me in my face every time I leave the bedroom. I've taken up photography, though, but you've all seen how big a failure that has turned out to be. I've completely lost all my inspiration and... I dunno what to call it; talent? - if I ever had any. As I was saying, I started the book, and I immediately recognized the things he wrote about his own depression - like, when you're depressed you are unable to see how others are hurting and have trouble as well. You know they do, but you have no sympathy, as yours are always worse. That is so true. I know it makes me a bad person to even think, let alone write this, but plenty of people in my life are/have been going through some bad stuff latey, from death to relationship crisis, and yes, I know it's bad for them and all, but right now I've been to tired, depressed and generally down to feel able, and act upon my guilt, to talk to them about it. It makes me feel like a really bad friend, and I guess I am too. I don't feel much right now at all. I go through each day in a daze. I smile, sure, it's a part of the job and the over-all appearance I have to keep on so that no one'll ever know, especially not my mother who thinks I'm this perfect little princess - except princesses don't have pink hair. It's guilt and sense of duty that makes me go into work. Getting up in the mornings is awfully hard. Making myself take a shower is harder. I've stopped eating. I feel guilty about everyone I let down, but I can't do anything to stop myself from doing it.
Emmadolly Posted October 2, 2006 Report Posted October 2, 2006 Mer, you are not a bad person at all, you feel this way about yourself only because you feel low at the moment. Every child, no matter how old they are, feel their parents have high expectations of them, you are not alone there. You will get through it, it may not be tomorrow. But it will happen, and you will feel happy about your self, and what you have to offer to others.
Jackieleanne Posted October 3, 2006 Report Posted October 3, 2006 Mar, you are not a bad person trust me on that one you do an awful lot of hardwork and I have seen you helping people out, right now you are just going through an awful lot yourself I'm sure your friends understand that. Eventually you will get through the depression and you will beat it, and Mar I think you have amazing talent at art and photography try and keep going with it and soon you'll find your way out of your block and it will help you.
Jess Posted October 7, 2006 Report Posted October 7, 2006 Just thought I'd bump this thing up, we fell down onto the second page! How are we tonight, girlies?
Marieh Posted October 7, 2006 Report Posted October 7, 2006 Bored and excited .. Out computer is back so I finally got photoshop! AND! Dad can finally take a hint!
MarMar Posted October 8, 2006 Report Posted October 8, 2006 I didn't notice the replies as I haven't been here much lately, but it's greatly appreacited, gals! Thank you!
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