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[buffygirl]

Thanks di . and Frankie,.

It's

oing my head in, nu

[MarMar]

Take your time. You know where we are if you want to talk.

[buffygirl]

Thankyou for last night, sorry if you could't understand all that i wrote accutally had a drink which proberly did'nt help matters.

I was a bit worried a bout coming back as i thought i may have made a ass of myself.

Bit you lot helped me realise that i'm not alone and can chat toyou.

Bloomin hell writing this as started me off again.

[Frankie]

Thats fine BG..if you need a good blub girl then have a good blub...you did not make an ass of yourself..and we were all thinking of you....

[MarMar]

Nothing to worry about, BG. You did not make an ass of yourself, because you didn't post much. Hope you're doing better today.

[buffygirl]

Thank's mar, i did'nsay much in the end.

My sister was a drug addict, she had already twice before tried to kill herslf< then she was sechonded.

She was surposed to be at the high risk level and watched , but some how she got the cords to hang herself.

I feel bad firstly because when my mum go the call my brother tried to get me on the phone and the door, i did'nt mhear so i got up for work got the mess, there were in chelmsford ,she was brain dead , dying the time for her to go..

It was the hardest day of my life because i could'nt get there, asked dad but was busy, me my sis have different dads.

I was wathcing tv i remeber waching casualty thinking i can't handle this i went for a walk into town. i hate town, managed to talk to my brother a time's but gotthe call i new what it was, for them i remeber phoneing all that mi had too.

[MarMar]

I have been thinking tonight... Not sure for how long, but;

I have all these feelings. I can't describe them. I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm mad, I'm depressed. I want to die. I want to live. I want to scream. I want to sleep.

I am not in a healthy place right now. I have not been for a very long time. I do not know if I will ever be healthy again. I am not sure I will post here again.

I will continue to do my moderator duties. When I'm logged on.

Until next (?) time...

[Di]

I have been thinking tonight... Not sure for how long, but;

I have all these feelings. I can't describe them. I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm mad, I'm depressed. I want to die. I want to live. I want to scream. I want to sleep.

I am not in a healthy place right now. I have not been for a very long time. I do not know if I will ever be healthy again. I am not sure I will post here again.

I will continue to do my moderator duties. When I'm logged on.

Until next (?) time...

Mar hun ... I have been like this on and off since I was 17years old... Its the worst feeling in the world. esp sometims I don't know what triggers it... It makes you feel worse.. You don't want to feel like this, but you don't know how or where to start to get help. As you feel you have let your self and your family down?

I think it could be something to do with the sad situation you are in right now, and your feeling are all over the place as your trying to be strong for your partner. Your trying to help let yourself in to try and help him. He wants to deal things in his way right?.

You have bottled your real feelings for a long time, as your just trying to ignore them and hope they will go away right?... Your thinking why the **** your feeling like this?.. I'm so happy with my life right now? Arent I? Depression does not care about if your happy or sad.. you are,it strikes you at any given moment... reguardless if you happy or sad .

Mar! hun sweeite, I'd do the things you adviced me to do, when I asked for help. yeah its the most hardest step of all to do.. As I have been there done that countless of times before.... I had a very bad time a couple of months ago...

The light at the end of the tunnel was sooooooooo far away. I was not getting any nearer despite no matter how hard I tried no matter what I did.. it was just slipping further and further away from my grasp. I thought I'd never get there.. I was very close to giving up.. But I didn't! even though it was like living in hell most of the time.

I came through it.. even though it took longer than I wanted it to... depression has it's own mind and does what it wants... its in control of you. Your not in control of it... thats is untill you go and see someone about it... Then! and only then! you can start to get back in control of your feelings, your life. It's hell at the start... it is sometimes slow and some times very painfull . But if I can kick its ****ing ass .. I hope you will be able to hun.

It's people who have never had to see, or deal with depression... that don't understant what it's like to live with it... They say oooh just pull yourself together.. your just a bit down... They have not got a ****ing clue.. all you want to do is smack em in the face... I know I do..

I hope you get help, as your a wonderful, caring woman... who has a very bright happy future in front of you...

XXXX ... I'm here if you ever want to talk... that goes for anyone.

[Frankie]

Di, I think you are a pretty special human being...

[Lucy_84]

Can anyone help me? my boyfriend of a year and 3 months has split up with me and i really miss him and have been feeling really down and not sleeping and cant eat. We were i thort really good together. I want to get back with him but he wont talk to me about it. What can i do?