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[~Lynd~]

I've so effing had it i don't know how to put it into words.

Because i'm in a wheelchair i've had pressure sores behind my legs on and off for years.Now i only have one but today i went to the specialist who said the x ray i had shows i probably have a bone infection which is why it isn't healing.So i had to have a blood test and he wants me to have a MRI scan and to see the infectious disease doctor.How fun,like i don't already feel like a freak!

This feels like freakin' the never ending story.Everytime i think it's getting better it gets worse.Everytime i think i might be able to have a resemlence of a life this interferes.I have a interview on wendesday to do work experience at a chidcare centre so i can do community services at TAFE next year.I thought things were looking up and now this.

He says not to get to ahead of ourselves till we know what we're dealing with and i can probably have a drip at home so it shouldn't interfere to much.Easy for him to say,he won't have to go into hospital for a few days to get the drip in and and such with no support what so ever because everyone cares more about themselves then me.

I just feel so alone.

And so the story continues.I have to go to hospital next week to have IV antibiotics for god knows how long.Fanf*ckingtastic!I only just started working at the centre to.

I quoted because i was to lazy to type it all.Excuse the rant.

[Lesley Bee]

I know this is quite trivial but basically a few years ago i was on anti depressant medication because of a bad patch i went through, fortunately i managed to get off the pills, recently though i have hit a bit of a bad patch again and im seriously thinking of asking my doctor to prescribe them again, the thing is i don't really want to be dependant again and i was just wondering if anyone knew of any other alternatives i could explore?

[~Zoe~]

I dont really need any advice as such, its just tomorrow is going to be a hard day, me and all my family are going up to my uncles grave, as tomorrow it will be two years since he died, we all stopped grieving a while ago, but it will still be sad, as its only two years. It was'nt a very good situation at the time, as he was only 33, and he killed himself, tied a rope around his neck, to a tree.

I was really close to him, and I took it pretty badly, kept having panic attacks, and had to see this one doctor a lot (as there is this one doctor at my surgery who i can tell most things to, he's a male GP but he's really good) I wanted to see the body, but both my doctor and my family wouldnt let me, as I have epilepsy aswell.

Aswell as seeing the doctor for that, I also had to see a conunsellor, for the death of my uncle, and another thing, I used to have this thing called BDD, like didnt have much confidene, and couldnt look in a mirror, & was'nt eating properly & self harming. I'm all better now, with that. Just not looking forward to tomorrow, the 2nd year anniversery of my uncles death

[-Kevin-]

I dont really need any advice as such, its just tomorrow is going to be a hard day, me and all my family are going up to my uncles grave, as tomorrow it will be two years since he died, we all stopped grieving a while ago, but it will still be sad, as its only two years. It was'nt a very good situation at the time, as he was only 33, and he killed himself, tied a rope around his neck, to a tree.

I was really close to him, and I took it pretty badly, kept having panic attacks, and had to see this one doctor a lot (as there is this one doctor at my surgery who i can tell most things to, he's a male GP but he's really good) I wanted to see the body, but both my doctor and my family wouldnt let me, as I have epilepsy aswell.

Aswell as seeing the doctor for that, I also had to see a conunsellor, for the death of my uncle, and another thing, I used to have this thing called BDD, like didnt have much confidene, and couldnt look in a mirror, & was'nt eating properly & self harming. I'm all better now, with that. Just not looking forward to tomorrow, the 2nd year anniversery of my uncles death

I know how you feel Zoe , its really hard to lose someone you are really close to.

I just thought I would share a verse with you that I read at a remembrance Christmas mass for the first Christmas after my mother died :

I find an old photograph and see your smile

As I feel your presence anew

I am filled with warmth

and my heart remembers love,

I remember who you used to be,

the laughter we shared

and wonder what you have become

Where are you now,

Where did you go,

When the body is left behind

and the spirit is released to fly ?

Perhaps you are the morning bird

singing joyfully at sunrise,

or the butterfly that dances so carelessly

on the breeze

Or the rainbow of colours that

brightens a stormy sky

or the fingers of afternoon mist

delicately reaching over the mountains

or the final few rays of the setting sun

lighting up the skies

edging the clouds with a magical glow.

I miss your being but I feel your presence,

In whatever form you choose to take,

however you now choose to be,

guiding,advising,and watching over me.

I rememeber you

You are with me and I am not afraid.

There was also a small verse that I recieved from a nun who I was very close to :

^^ that helped me quite a bit and I hope it makes you feel better Zoe

[~Zoe~]

^^

Yeah it did, thanks

[~Zoe~]

I would like some advice, & help this time..

Its about my sister, my mum came round today, as I dont like with her, I live with my aunty, well anyways.. she told me that my 15 year old sister Faye has an eating disorder, she took her down the doctors yesterday, & he digagnosed it, as she does it food, but not that much, and she keeps making herself sick, and she's lost a lot of weight, and her teeth have come a bit loose, after making herself be sick. So the doctor has refferred her for counselling, I just wondered if there was anything I could do to help her, as she's my little sister, well she's 15. Plus I know what its like, myself to have an eating disorder, as I went through a simlair thing a few years ago, well I didnt make myself sick, I did, once, but I just kept over exerisisng, doing loads of sit ups and push ups, and I'd wake up early to do that.

Thats why I'm worried about her, as I know what its like to go through that.

[Zetti]

As a sufferer from eating disorders... I cant imagine watching someone else go through with it but my advice would be just talk to her, maybe reflect on your experience and just mainly let her know that you are there for her.

[~Zoe~]

Yeah I will do, thanks Zetti

[-Kevin-]

I have been having a great day today until someone I know said the most horrible things to me and now I feel like just like I want to die

Someone told me that my mum died because she hated me , I have never seen someone to say such nasty things to anybody in my life

I have never been so shocked in my life at some of the things that have been said to me.

I just feel so deflated at the moment and don't know what to do

[Barbara]

That person is just horrible. Don't listen to that person, Kevin. I'm sure that it's not true. I saw the tribute video you made and you can see in the pictures where she is with you and/or your siblings that she loved her children. Promise me you won't listen to that stupid and horrible person ever again.

I don't think I commented on that video yet. So I'll do it now. It was amazing. The song was perfect too. It looks like your mother was a great woman.