True Love Lasts a Lifetime.....

[vale4eva]

Aww, sam really is a nice person isnt she! shes doing the decent thing and looking out for jack, which she always has done anyway

Great chapters! there very cute!

Update soon

[BritishFan]

Please update soon...this is really nice. :D

[xsianx]

I love it. I absolutly love it.

Sam gone (hopefully)

Jack and Martha together.

Jack being a daddy.

Whats not to love?

Great writing PINK.

[-ParaisGal-]

Yay, all we need now is for the baby to be Jack's... -Smiles sweetly at Pink-

..I didn't say anything..

Great going. This has me addicted so update please!

[PINK]

I have a couple of ideas for what's going to happen, I'm trying to figure which will make the story more interesting.

I'll decide soon and an update should be up within the next hour or so.

PS: Thanks for all the positive feedback

[-ParaisGal-]

Piink, did you get my message? lol.

[PINK]

^^Yep my old account got deleated so I'll sign up for it again tonight and add you.....

[-ParaisGal-]

YAY! Thankies Pink

[PINK]

Chapter 3: Come and Take My Pain Away.....

“You feeling alright” Jack asked as they entered the hospital for Martha’s first check-up”

Martha shrugged she really didn’t know what to feel she was so confused she wanted to love this baby so much but she just couldn’t bring herself to, every waking hour she would tell herself that she should love this baby like nothing else because it was her own flesh and blood. Everyone would come up to her and congratulate her and talk about how excited she must be, Rachel would say that “It must feel amazing to have a life growing inside of you” and Martha responded the way she always did, she put on a smile and told them what they wanted to hear that “she couldn’t wait to be a mum and her and Jack were over joyed with happiness”.

Jack knew nothing of how she felt Martha could tell that it was hard on him too not being the real father and all but he always put on a brave face and went along with it he would do anything as long as it meant he and the girl of his dreams would be together forever.

They came to a stop in the waiting room where they sat,

Martha looked around at all the other couples waiting to see there baby for the first time looking so happy and in love she couldn’t describe how much she wanted this baby to be Jack’s.

Right next to Martha was Jack holding her hand securely in his own this would be the first time they would see the baby and he didn’t know how it would be his dad had been saying just that morning how amazing it is when you see your baby for the first t…..

Jack and Martha were broken from there thoughts by the nurse calling Martha’s name…

“Mrs Martha Holden” Julie called,

Martha looked at Jack and took a deep breath they stood up and made there way to the door of the examining room,

Hey Rachel beamed at Jack and Martha as they entered the room,

“Hi Rach” Martha replied with her same fake smile and expression.

“I suppose we should get started” Rachel suggested “if you could just lie down on the bed and we can do this”

“Ok” Martha replied as she went over to lie down.

“Ok I’m going to put this gel on your stomach it may be a bit cold” she explained

Martha looked over and smiled slightly, and then looked straight back at the screen and there it was her baby it was there she could see it, it was so small.

Jacks looked down to the floor it just didn’t know what to feel was he supposed to love the baby seeing as though he was the person going to raise it he was so confused.

Martha looked up at Rachel and she could sense something was wrong,

“Rachel” Martha broke the silence “what’s going on what’s wrong” she asked

“Um” Rachel searched for the words

“Rachel” Martha urged getting worked up “what’s wrong” she asked again slightly worried.

“Um Jack could I talk to Martha for a sec”

By this stage Martha knew something wasn’t right “no anything you have to say can be said in front of Jack” she said starting to get angry.

Rachel looked down at the floor,

“Rach what’s going on” Jack said starting to get annoyed

“I’m so sorry it’s gone” Rachel spoke remorse written all over her face.

There was a silence which was broken by Jack,

“But how” he stuttered,

“It just happens guys I’m so sorry by the size of it I’d say it happened about a week ago”

Martha looked down at her hand that was still grasping onto Jacks tightly.

“Martha…” Jack started

“I think I need to be alone” Martha spoke softly slowly letting go of Jacks hand.

Jack agreed “I’ll be right outside if you need me just call”

She nodded slightly as she watched him leave the room.

“Martha you have to know this wasn’t your fault there is nothing anyone could’ve done and I’m here if you need to talk”

Martha once again nodded and waited for Rachel to shut the door before turning on her side and starting to sob uncontrollably.

Jack sat in the hospital waiting room replaying the days events in his head but was broken from his thoughts when Sally, Rick Alf, Tony, Beth and Lucas came rushing through the doors.

“What’s going on mate” Tony asked worry written all over his face I don’t know she said she wanted to be alone I’m really worried about her”

“I’ll try and talk to her” Sally said as she made her way towards Martha’s door.

“Hey” Sally said softly as she entered the room with caution hoping not to say or do something to upset her more than she already was.

Martha didn’t speak she just lay there with her back to Sally

“Do you want me to leave” Sally questioned

Martha was quick to respond with a quick shake of her head “no stay please don’t leave me” she said turning over and sitting up letting tears run down her cheeks

“Hey, hey its ok I’m going anywhere” she said quickly rushing over to sit next to her and wrapping her arms around her in a protective hug “Its ok shhhh it’s going to be ok”

Martha shook her head no its not” Martha argued “I feel so guilty, so ashamed” she spoke into Sally’s shoulder.

“Don’t ever feel like this is your fault it isn’t there was nothing anyone could of done to stop this from happening no one knew it was coming”

Martha shook her head as she tore herself away from sally “no” she stated I feel guilty because I feel relieved” she said her voice breaking as she spoke the last word.

Sally looked at her shocked.

“You think I’m awful don’t you?” Martha said still silent tears running down her cheeks tears she couldn’t seem to control, tears she had stopped trying to stop quite a while ago.

“No” Sally said “I don’t think that what you went through with Ash was horrible I don’t blame you for being relieved that there isn’t going to be a piece of him around forever”

“But that’s the thing it was a piece of me too”

“Listen why don’t I go get Jack you can talk this whole thing over with him I’m sure he’ll underst….”

But Martha cut her off “NO” she practically begged “I can’t face him just yet”

“He wants to see you he wants to make sure your ok”

Martha sighed “give me half an hour ok” she said

“Ok” Sally agreed she had to giver her space she slowly stood up off the bed but felt a tug on her arm.

“Hold me” Martha looked into Sally’s eyes like a frightened two year old.

“Of course” Sally said as she sat down and too her into her arms holding her while she tried to free herself from her pain.

Jack sat on one of the hard white chairs playing with his hands when he felt the presence of another body beside him he turned his head to find his father sitting next to him looking at him sympathetically.

“How are you” he asked

“As good as can be expected I suppose” He said glumly

“You want to talk about it” he asked

“What’s there to talk about the fact that my wife just lost her baby or the fact that I don’t care?” he asked

Tony looked at him “whoa slow down mate what are you talking about?”

“I thought I was going to be able to handle the fact that Martha was having Ash’s baby I thought I could just pretend that it was mine and I could be the father and everything would be normal and me and Martha could have a Baby of our own later I didn’t see a problem with it at first but lately well over the last couple of days I just started to feel like maybe I had made the decision to quickly that maybe I didn’t think it through and I feel so bad cause my wife the woman I love is in there in so much pain and all I can do is sit here and feel like this what kind of husband, what kind of person does that make me” he asked his father as a tear trickled down his cheek.

“I think how your feeling is totally normal” he answered

“normal” Jack scoffed “how is it normal while everyone around here is grieving the loss of a grandchild a niece or nephew I can’t even bring myself to grieve the loss of what of been my son or daughter” he said getting angry.

“Hey mate I think you need to calm down at least for Martha’s sake she’s going to need you”

Jack nodded “yeah I know”

“Ok and mate if you ever need to talk you know where I am”

“Yeah thanks dad and sorry for dumping all this stuff on you”

“Hey mate its fine”

“Thanks dad” he said gratefully

“Hey come here” Tony said bringing Jack into his arms and holding him like he did when he was a little boy.

“Jack” Sally said softly as she stood beside him obviously breaking him from some very serious thoughts”

“Yeah” Jack looked up

“Martha would like to see you” she said with a smile on her face

“Thanks” he said as he stood up and made his way towards the door.

Jack slowly turned the handle and stepped inside the cold white dark room.

The first thing he saw was Martha sitting up in bed, her knees tucked tightly into her chest and she was just staring blankly into space.

“Hey” he said softly and quietly breaking her from her thoughts.

She turned her head to look at him her face tear stained and her eyes red and puffy, her once so bubbly personality drained from her it broke his heart to see her like this he hurried over to her bed and scooped her into his arms he kissed her head telling her it was going to be ok as she sobbed into his shirt wondering when and if this pain in her heart would ever go away…..

[jackandmarthaforever!!]

OMG!!! Poor Martha. I really feel M & J's pain. This is fantastic writing. You have me gripped. Well Done. I really hope they eventually get over the pain. I feel sorry for them!!! Please give them some happiness.