You Look, But You Don't See

[pamy]

Chapter 36: Hospital

She looked around. In the distance she could hear different sounds. Even voices. But nothing was getting trough to her. Slowely she closed her eyes. This couldn't be happening. Not now. Not now that they were so happy. She opened her eyes again and looked around. Why were all the walls white. Why? She looked up when she heard someone walk in.

Macca walked trough the hospital. His big brother was out of the country again. He tried his best to remain calm. This was his worst nightmare. Getting a call that his little sister had been in an accident. Especially after everything that had already happened to them. Slowely he opened the door. He could gladly say he was relieved to see his sister sitting there. Then she started to cry.

Tasha opened her eyes. She had passed out on the scene. She remembered hearing an explosion. Screams. Then the entier world turned dark for her. She had woken up a couple of hours ago. But she couldn't stay awake. Now she was awake again. There was noone in her room. She needed to see someone. She didn't know what had happened. The last thing she remembered was the explosion. Jack and Kim were in that car. Her hearth started to beat faster. They couldn't be dead. And what about Robbie?

People were walking past her. She was sitting in the corner on the floor. She had lost her cellphone on the scene, not that it mattered. She sighed. Kim. She couldn't believe it but she was sure of it now. She had realized it the exact minute the car exploded. She was in love with him. It didn't make any sence. I mean in love with Kim Hyde? But now it didn't matter anymore. Nothing mattered.

She saw her big brother standing there. It was his face that made in impossible to keep her tears in. When she saw him everything came back to her. Robbie unconscious on the floor. Tasha crying. Carla falling on her knees. And Jack...Jack still in the car. She started to cry. Suddenly she felt her big brothers strong arms around her. She sobbed in his shoulder. This couldn't be happening. Not again.

Slowely she walked into the room. Carla sat on the seet next to the bed. She had to wait. Wait for someone to tell her something. She wasn't family. They had to inform family first. God. People say that the worst feeling you can have is when they tell you someone you love is dead. Personely she thought that the wait was worse. The agony. The not knowing. That was worse. Because as long as you didn't know, you have hope. And the longer you hope, the worse it is when you have to face the truth.

It hurted. Everything hurted. It was weird. He thought he wouldn't feel anything. He had never been in an accident. Technicly seen he hadn't been in an accident. It was all dark around him. No light was coming trough. No sound was coming trough. It was completely silent. He had no idea how much time had passed. Somehow he hoped to stay here. It was so peacefull.

flash back

Kim ran back to the car to get Jack. His best friend. He prayed, he had never prayed in his life, but that night he prayed. He prayed that his best friend was alive. He didn't care if Jack would never talk to him again. He didn't care that he would never see him again. But God please, let him live.

Martha sat on the cold grass. Staring at the car. Please. Please. This can't be hapening to me. No please. Jack has to live. Please he can't die. I love him. God please. Not Jack. Her hearth was beating very fast. She didn't realise that tears were rolling down her cheeks. She was covered in blood but she didn't care. Her leg was hurting like hell but it didn't matter. All that mattered was Jack.

Tasha was still trying to wake up Robbie. Trying her best to remain calm. She was covered in blood. Everything was hurting. She was having trouble breathing. But it didn't matter. Robbie had to wake up. But he didn't move. For a second she thought he was already dead. But then she saw his chest move.

Carla turned off her phone. She had just called an ambulance. They would be there in ten minutes. But looking at Robbie, she wondered if ten minutes wouldn't be to long. God. Why did this accident happen miles away from the world? What happened here? What happened?

Kim climbed in the car. He tried his best to wake up Jack. But Jack didn't respond. He checked for a pulse, and was relieved when he found one. He tried to undo his belt, but Jack was tied up pretty hard. He could see blood everywhere. Crawling out of the car again he searched for something to get Jack out. And all the time nobody noticed the small flame that could mean the end of everything.

end of flash back

Martha pulled herself away from Macca. Looking for the answer in his eyes. What was happening outside? How was everyone else? But Macca didn't know anything. He didn't stop long enough to find out. All he had cared about anything but his little sister. Softy he pulled her closer to him. Trying to protect her from the bad news that would be coming her way. He hoped that there would be none. But he couldn't believe that. Not after everything that happened last year, he had no hope left.

Martha whispered someting. She didn't want to ask. She didn't want to know. Not yet. She needed time. Time. No amoutn of tme would protect her if it was bad news. But she needed time. Time to be prepared. 'I hate hospitals.' 'I know little sis. I know.' 'I want to go.' 'Calm down. Everything will be alright.' 'Mum and dad.' 'I know. Shh. I'm here. Just calm down. Everything will be alright.' He kept repeating that. As if by saying it a lot of times it would be truth.

Tasha tried to get up. Screaming out in pain she fell back down. She had to get up. She had to find Robbie. She had to. But right now she couldn't do anything. Not even breath. She tried to calm herself down. Because like this she couldn't find Robbie. Robbie was here. He had to be. The alternative was to hard to come by.

flash back

Kim ducked back in the car. Slowely he looked trough the car untill he found what he was looking for. A knife. The same knife he had given Jack when they were eight. He smiled at the sudden memorie. It was the day they cut their hands. Blood brothers. Forever. He sighed. He moved further in the car, starting to cut the seat belt that was holding Jack. Carefully so he wouldn't cut Jack. Not that it would really matter. He had lost a lot of blood already.

And the flame kept growing. Just a little further and the whole car would blow up. But nobody noticed. Nobody paid attention. Nobody saw that it would just take a couple of seconds and everything would blow up. And that would be the end for them.

end of flash back

Slowely she placed her head on his chest. She had convinced Rachel to go and see him. Only if she would be calm. And not make any sudden movements. She was alone with him right now. His brother and sister were at home. His mum was talking to the docter. And she was lying here. 'Wake up Rob. Please wake up.' Tears rolled over her cheeks and wetted his hospital shirt.

She took his hand. He had to live. She didn't know why. There were really no reasons. She didn't know what happened there. She didn't know anything. She squeezed his hand. Wondering if it would wake him up.

Flash back

Finally Kim freed Jack. Now he had to be carefull. He had to get Jack out of the car. Slowely he started pulling. After a while he finally got him out. He sighed. There was no way he could carry him. He was to heavy. He would have to wait for the ambulance to get there. He had the time. He looked at the car. And that's when he saw the flame.

He stared at the flames for a second before it hit him. He had no time. If he saw it right he had less then two minutes to get Jack out of there before the car blew up. With newfound strenth he started to pull Jack away. But it wasn't enough. There wasn't enough time. He got as far from the car away as he could. But he knew it wasn't far enough. Lying down on Jack to protect him he waited. He couldn't do anything else.

The car exploded without warning. The explosiong shattered the silence around them. It was hot. He could feel the flames on his body. He wished he could do something. He wished he had never done what he did. But there was no going back now. There would be no forgiving now. It was over. In the distance he could hear Martha scream very loudly. That was the last thing he heard. After that there was only darkness...

[katie343]

Nooo please let Jack be okay!! Ahh cliff hanger

Please update soon!

xx

[Barbara]

Please, let Jack, Robbie and Kim be ok. Did I just say Kim had to be ok too?

Glad Martha and Tasha are fine.

Poor Martha! She's been through so much. I don't think she could handle it if something happened to Jack.

I had a feeling Carla liked Kim.

More please.

[pamy]

Chapter 37: just wake up

Slowely the rain fell from the sky. She looked out the window. It was as if the weather was showing her what she felt. Closing her eyes another tear rolled down her cheek. This couldn't be happening to her. She had been sitting in this room for hours. The noices of the hospital were making her crazy. The smell was making her dizzy. But what bothered her the most was the fact that she knew nothing. Macca had gone to find out how Jack was. He couldn't be dead. She looked out the window. The rain fell on the window. They seemed like tears.

Macca walked trough the hospital. Trying his best to remain calm. He hated hospitals. Ever since he had spend so much time in a hospital he was actually a little afraid. He had never told anyone. He would surtanly not tell his little sister now. He wanted to stay with her. Take care of her. But she wanted to know how the rest was. So here he was looking for a doctor. Trying his best to remain calm.

Tasha sat next to his bed. She heard the beeping sound of the machine next to the bed. The one who shows his hearthbeat. He was alive. She closed her eyes. He was alive. He wasn't awake jet, but he was alive. It had taken her a long time to convince the doctors to let her stay her. But here she was. Waiting for him to wake up. She wanted to be the first person he saw. So she waited. Trying to block out the beeping. The beeping of his hearth.

Carla took his hand. She didn't know why she was still here. Kim had never been nice to her. She closed her eyes. She was here because she liked him. Not the selfcentern jerk that he had once been. But the nice caring boy whome he had become over the last couple of months. Slowely. She opened her eyes again. 'Wake up.' She whispered softly. If it was only to show the world who he had become. He didn't have to like her. Just wake up.

Flash back

Carla felt like she was paralyzed. Staring at the flames. She was sure that for a second her hearth stopped beating. She could hear Martha scream in the distance. But it was as if she was far away from her. The cellphone fell out of her hand and landed on the grass. It didn't matter. He had to be alive. And that's when she realised. She loved him. She couldn't explain it not even to her. But she was in love with Kim Hyde. And she had just lost him.

Martha screamed once verry loudly. Then her voice failed. She sat there. All the strenth seemed to have dissapeared out of her body. She closed her eyes. The glow of the fire was still visible though. He couldn't be dead. She loved him. She had already lost so much. He could be dead.

end of flash back

Martha tried to get up. Tired of waiting she decided to go herself. But her leg was wounded. And she couldn't stand on it. She couldn't even stand for a second. She screamed in pain and fell down. Her brother came in just in time to catch her. His strong arms around her made her feel safe. She looked at him desperatly. Please tell me he's alive. Please.

Tasha took Robbie's hand. Carising it soflty she whispered to him to wake up. If he could hear her, he didn't respond. She closed her eyes. He has to wake up. She couldn't live without him. His hand felt like it was dead. It didn't move. It was cold. With her eyes closed she wished he would move. And then he did.

Locked in the darkness and the silence. That's how he felt. Like he was locked up. He could hear someone's voice coming from verry far away. Telling him to wake up. He tried to make up where the voice came from. But not matter how many times he turned around, he couldn't see anything but darkness. He couldn't reconise the name. Then he suddenly did. Carla.

Flash Back

Kim felt like he was lying in an oven. He didn't even know why. For a second. Then he remembered the explosion. He tried to move, but everything hurted. He could feel the burnmarks all over him. It was like he was on fire. For a second he thought he was. But then her realised he wasn't. Then he remebered Jack.

Seconds ago, before the blast, he could hear Martha scream. Now he heard nothing. He felt Jack under him. In the last moment in an attempt to protect him. He didn't even know why. He just thought that if one of them deserved to live was Jack. If it was only for the person who was so desperatly screaming for him. He had nobody that screamed for him. He wished he had. And that's when he realised that it was Carla he wished that would scream for him.

end of flash back

Kim moved around. She could feel his hand closing around hers. She looked up. He was waking up. That was a good thing. She smiled trough her tears. Everything would be ok now. He would be fine. He would be able to show the world he had changed. And maybe when the time was right he could love her. Maybe. Then he whispered something.

'Carla.' She thought she was dreaming. Why would he ask for her? 'Shh. It's ok.' 'Hey. You're here.' 'Of course I'm here. You deserve someone on your side. You're a hero you know. You saved them.' He sighed. 'Martha?' 'She's fine. Just her leg. But she'll be fine.' 'Tash? Rob?' 'Tasha has a lot of wounds but she'll be fine. Rob is alive but last time I checked he was still in a coma.' He hesitated. He had waited to ask this question because it was the answer he feared the most. 'Jack?' She looked at him. She didn't know what to say.

'Hey. Shhh.' Tasha had lifted herself up as much as she could. It hurted but she wanted to calm him down. Soflty she cherised his cheek. She loved him so much. 'You ok?' He nodded. 'The others?' 'Don't worry about them. Shhh.' He tried to say more but he was so tired. So tired. 'I love you.' She looked at him. Had he just said that? Or had she dreamed it? 'I love you to.' 'You should.' She smiled. And she felt relieved when he smiled back at her. They would be alright.

Flash back

He tried to make out if his best friend was still breathing. But he coul hardly move. Using his last strenth he moved a little closer to Jack. Relieved he felt his hearth beat. It wasn't a good beat. He could hardly make it out. But as long as his hearth was beating he was alive. And as long as he was alive he had a fighting chance. That's when the darkness swallowed him again.

end of flash back

Martha sat next to his bed. She wanted to be calm but she couldn't. The doctors said that he had recieved the hardest blow. He had internel bleeding. His situation was critical but stabel. The problem was the fact that he wasn't awak yet. The doctors weren't very optimistic. She could feel her brothers arm around her. Tony was sittin at the other side of the bed. She knew they were all praying. She just didn't know if it would matter.

She took his hand. She wanted to feel close to him. Tears rolled down her cheeks. She wanted him to be ok. She wanted him to wake up. She moved closer to him. She closed her eyes. He felt her closer to him. He heard voices, sounds from very far away. He opened his eyes a little. Light was coming trough. He looked at her. Martha.

He wanted to say something but he couldn't. He wanted to move but he couldn't. All she had to do was open her eyes and she would now that he was alright. Slowely he closed his hand around hers. 'Jack.' Tony jumped up. 'Hey buddy.' He moved to the other side. 'Hey. The others?' 'All alright. Even Kim.' 'Kim?' Jack closed his eyes. Explanations would come later.

Martha smiled at him. He was ok. That's all that mattered. He smiled at her. He heard her say she would leave them alone. He closed his hand harder. She couldn't go. He had to tell her first. When the car spind out of controle he realised he couldn't let a chance go. He had to tell her now. 'I love you.'

Martha looked at him. He had just told her. Slowely she moved closer to him. Placing a soft kiss on his head she whispered 'I love you to.'

[Barbara]

Great chapter!

They're all ok, even the boys!

Robbie & Tasha love each other. Martha & Jack love each other too. How sweet!

Carla likes Kim and he likes her.

Kim has become a better person those last few months. All this happened thanks to Carla.

More please.

[pamy]

I seem to only have one reader left. Maybe I should end the story? Let me know should I continue?

Anyway here's the next chapter. It's a shorter one.

Chapter 38: weird kind of feeling

Jack felt weird. He thought he would feel a lot of pain but he couldn't feel a thing. It took him a while to realise that that was probably because he was on painkillers. He also couldn't remember what happened. The last thing he remembered was arguing about the car. He still held Martha's hand in his. But he couldn't say anything anymore. He was so tired. Closing his eyes he fell back asleep.

Martha saw Jack close his eyes and for a second she got worried. It took her awhile to realise he had just fallen asleep. He was still holding her hand. She didn't mind. He loved her. He had told her. Everything was going to be ok. Nothing could happen to change it now. Nothing could happen at all. She moved and winced in pain. She had forgotten her wounded leg. Ignoring the pain she moved closer to Jack.

Robbie listened while Tasha told him what happened. He was feeling great. It was weird he had thought that he would be feeling really bad. He smiled. He was probably on drugs or something. It didn't matter. The only thing he needed was Tasha close to him. And that's what he had. He was glad to hear everyone else was ok. And very suprised when she told him Kim saved him.

Tasha saw Robbie smile and she could honestly say she had never felt so relieved in her life. For the most horrifying hours of her life she had thought she would lose him. Seeing him smile just made her realise he was there with her. She told him everything. She saw him look suprised when she told him Kim had saved them. She couldn't help but share the feeling. Maybe there was hope for the guy after all.

He looked at Carla. He had never noticed untill now she was actually hot. He wondered where all these thoughts were coming from. When he heard that everyone else was fine he had been happy. When he heard Jack was awake he was trilled. It wouldn't matter that they would never be friends again. As long as he was alive. He smiled at Carla. He was glad to have her at his side. Though he really didn't understand why she bothered. He had been so horrible.

Carla smiled at Kim. She was so glad he was ok. It didn't matter what she felt. He would never know. There was no way that he would like her. There was simply no way. Her mind drifted of. She remembered how Kim had been over the years. But losing Jack had changed him. It had been like a trigger. A wake up call. To bad it had come to late. But maybe it hadn't. Maybe they would give him another chance. And if they did she just hoped he wouldn't screw it up again.

Jack opened his eyes again. He looked around and found both his father and Martha asleep next to him. He smiled. He tried to move but he couldn't. He still didn't feel anything. It was a weird feeling. He saw a nurse come in and asker her if he was alright. She didn't answer him. It was weird. Almost as if something was wrong with im and nobody would tell him. It was a weird kind of feeling.

[Barbara]

I seem to only have one reader left. Maybe I should end the story? Let me know should I continue?

I think you should continue! I love this story. Come on people, leave some comments.

Oh no, is there something wrong with Jack? If he can't move, maybe he is paralysed.

Kim should tell Carla he likes her. She thinks he would never like her. So he has to make to the first move.

More please.

[-x-Siana-x-]

Hey!

Im Still reading I just dont get time to reply anymore...

I Have exams and everything else coming up and just... school work is taking up all of my time...

Anywhoooo!

This is really good and im still reading!

Please continue...

Siana__x

[valli]

Sorry I haven't been replying for a while. I'd love for this story to continue, but if you want to end it, then that's your choice

Phew, they all survived!

Poor Jack. Being on painkillers can't be much fun when it slowly makes you more and more distant from the real world I'm rambling again, I know

Carla and Kim loves each other Maybe there's hope for Kim after all

More please!

[amybabyy.x3]

OMG please dont stop this fic... i love reading it....

i will promise to start commenting ok =P

bahahah

AMy x