You Look, But You Don't See

[Barbara]

Carla, you go, girl! Kim deserved those slaps!

I think this is the end of Jack and Kim's friendship. Kim'd better apologize.

Martha took a shower with her clothes on. I love a drunk Martha. Will she be able to look Jack in the eye the next morning?

Robbie, why did you run away like that? Tasha kissed you back, she likes you.

More please.

[pamy]

Chapter 17: lost

Jack walked around in his room. Trying not to think of Martha. But it was impossible. He looked out the window. He wondered if Martha was alright. Her head must be killing her right about now. He looked at his hand. He still couldn't believe he had actually hit Kim.

Robbie saw Jack walking around but wasn't bothered by it. He didn't want to go outside. He didn't want to face Tasha yet. He knew he had to face her eventually. But he couldn't do it right now. A part of him wanted to believe she liked him. But he didn't want to get his hope up.

Tasha looked in the mirror. Smiling. She wanted to run out of the room and go talk to Robbie. But she couldn't leavd Martha alone. Jack might actually kill her. She saw how mad he got when Kim hurted Martha. She smiled. She hoped Jack got here soon. She wanted to talk to Robbie

Martha was sitting on her bed with her head in her hands. Her head was killing her. And she was embaresd. She couldn't remember everything about last night. However the things she did remember were embaressing. There was a soft knock on the door. She saw Tasha open it and Jack walk in. Oh no.

'Hey. You want coffee?' 'I don't drink coffee.' Martha stared at the floor. 'You ok.' 'No. My head hurts.' Jack smiled. 'Oh, you poor thing.' He sat down beside her. 'Are you ever going to look at me?' 'I'm embaressed.' 'Why?' 'I don't know.' 'Relax, I've seen a lot more. I've done a lot more.' Martha saw him smile at her. She felt a lot better. 'Why would you drink that much anyway.' 'Kim said that I had to fit in your world. And that that was the way.' 'Why on earth would you listen to Kim?' 'I don't know. It seemed like a good idea at the time.' Jack smiled.

Robbie opened the door. 'Hey.' He saw Tasha standing there and walked back into his room. Tasha followed him and closed the door behind her. 'You going to say something.' 'Yeah. I'm going to apologise. I should have never kissed you like that it was...' 'Why? You didn't wanted to kiss me?' 'No. I mean I did. But...' 'Good.' 'That's not good I mean...' 'Robbie. Stop talking.' 'WHy?' 'Because I have to do something.' 'LIke what?' 'Kiss you.' Tasha kisses him. She pulls away. 'You ok?' 'Yeah.' Tasha smiled and kissed him again.

'So did I really shower with my clothes on?' Jack burst out laughing. 'Sorry. It was just..' 'Did I do anything else?' 'Not really no. I mean some things but like I said, there are people who do a lot worse.' 'I can't believe I did that.' 'I can't believe you listened to Kim.' 'What happened when you found out he got me drunk?' 'I hit him.' 'You did?' 'Yeah. Did he do something else?' 'Why?' 'No reason just wondering.' Marhta hesitated should she tell him he tried to sleep with her? 'No. He did nothing else.'

They walked to the dining room where they had to meet the rest of their group. Tasha and RObbie were a couple now. Martha could see they were really happy together. They walked in the dining room. They were the last ones to arrive. 'Everyone is looking at me,Jack.' Jack smiled at her. 'Nobody is looking at you. Don't worry about it.'

Jack was waiting for Tash, Rob and Martha to come back. They were getting the stuff they needed. They had to go bush walking, why that was absolutely necesarry he had no idea. But I guess if the teacher said they have to do it, they should do it. 'Holden?' 'What do you want Hyde.' 'You can't stay mad at me forever.' 'I can try.' Kim sat down. 'Who told you you could sit there?' 'Come on Jack.' 'Leave me alone.' Jack stood up and walked away.

'Hate to say I told you so.' Carla sat down in the empty seat where Jack had been sitting just a couple of seconds ago. 'What do you want?' 'To say I told you so. And to give you some advice.' ' I don't want your advice.' 'Listen to me. Don't tell him you kissed Martha?' 'Why not.' 'You have a death wish? Look I'm not telling him and Martha is obviously not either.' 'Are you sure she won't tell him?' 'If she would she would have already done that. And trust you would know if she did.' 'Ok.' Carla looked at Kim. He seemed really down. 'Just change. Apologise to Martha and Change. Try to be friendly.' 'What?' 'Listen to me. YOu have done a lot of stupid and bad things. But...You're really going to lose him. Change. Because I will not understand it, and I don't think he understands it, but he will forgive you. You will be his friend again. Change.'

Jack trew the water bottle on the ground. 'I can't believe we're lost.' 'I know.' 'It's getting dark. Who's idea was it to let Robbie take the lead.' 'YOurs Jack.' 'Oh Right.' Martha was drinking a lot of water. Jack smiled at her. He wished he could tell her how he felt. He should tell her how he felt. But how was he supposed to do that.

It was dark. They had stopped walking a while ago. They made a fire with the idea that they would be easier to find. Tasha and Robbie were sitting under a tree. Kissing. And talking. Sometimes. Tasha looked at Martha and Jack. 'You ok?' 'Yeah. They look like they're having fun.' 'Yeah. You think Jack will ever forgive me for getting us lost?' 'Yeah.' Tasha kissed him.

Jack sat down next to Martha. 'You're shaking.' 'It's cold.' Jack put his jacket on her. 'Here.' Jack lied down. Martha lied down next to him. Her head on his shoulder. 'What are you looking at?' 'The stars. You know when I was a little boy, and my mum died, I once asked my dad where she was. So one night he took me outside and pointed at the stars. And said the brightest star you see in that heaven is the person you have lost looking over you.' Jack smiled at Martha. 'Wich one is the brightest for you?' Martha looked at Jack and pointed to two stars. 'Those two.' 'Well those are your parents.'

Martha smiled. She felt so good close to Jack. So safe. Her head was still hurting but somehow that wasn't really that bad. She felt so good, she didn't wanted to move. She was suddenly wondering if she could tell him. He wouldn't laugh with her. Right?

Jack looked at Martha. She looked a lot better then this morning. He wanted to help her so much. He really wanted to tell her. Maybe he should just do it. I mean it wouldn't be that bed. Jack turned to Martha. 'Martha...' Martha turned to him. She was really close to him now. He wanted to kiss her so badly. He moved forward to kiss her.

'They found us.' Jack got up, so did Martha. He didn't kiss her. 'I guess we're going home now.' 'Yeah.' Jack smiled and helped Martha up. He felt verry uncomfortable. He had almost kissed her. He had wanted to do that. But now he felt bad. He just hoped she didn't notice.

[Barbara]

Tasha and Robbie are dating.

Why let Robbie lead the way when he's known to get lost in small towns?

I hope Kim will listen to Carla this time.

Why did they have to interrupt Jack and Martha when they were just about to kiss?

More please.

[pamy]

Chapter 18: a confession

Jack sat at thetable staring at his breakfast. Tony looked at him. Jack was lost in his thoughts. He couldn't stop thinking about Martha. He was thinking of the right way to tell her. But he didn't think he could go out with her. 'You know the breakfast is not going to get eaten by you just staring at it. Jack? Jack earth to Jack.' 'What?' 'Where are you?' 'I've been here.' 'Not your thoughts. Talk to me.' 'No. Dad. Not necasarry. I've got to go.'

Martha looked at the ocean. Thoughts were running trough her head. She was thinking of her brothers. Mainly because she just got of the phone with her little brother. But she could also not stop thinking of Jack. Ever since Robbie and Tasha got together she thought it wouldn't be that bad to tell Jack. They could be happy together. If he liked her that is.

Kim saw Martha standing on the beach. He could still remember Carla's words. Maybe she was right. He could just apologise, if it would safe his friendship. It's not as if that's the end of the world. 'Hey. Martha.' Martha turned around. 'Kim. What do you want?' She wanted to walk away. 'Wait. I want to apologise. This time for real.' 'Why?' 'Because Jack's my best friend. And I'm apologising. For real.' 'Ok.' 'Really?' 'Yeah. I mean you're Jack's friend. And if you're really apologising. Ok.' Kim put out his hand and shook hers.

Jack arrived. Just in time to see Kim walk away. Ok. Weird. 'Hey. Was that Kim?' 'Yeah.' 'What did he wanted?' 'To apologise. For real.' 'Seriously?' 'Yeah.' 'Wait here.' 'Ok.' Jack ran. He didn't know what he wanted to tell Kim. But for some reason he wanted to talk to him. 'Hyde wait.' 'Hey.' 'You apologised?' 'Yeah.' 'You meant it?' 'Yeah. I mean she's your friend, I get it, so Yeah. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt her.' 'Ok. I'm going to go back.' 'Ok. See you at practice.' 'Yeah.'

Martha was looking at the game. It was the second game of the year and she was sitting next to Robbie. She looked at Jack, god he looked good. Verry hot. 'Hey. Rob. I think I wanne tell him.' 'Tell who what?' 'Jack.That I.. You know.' 'You should.' 'You really think so?' 'Yeah I mean, look at me and Tash. It can only go good right?' 'Right.' 'Tell him after the game. Inmeadiatly.' 'Why?' 'Because if you don't tell him now, you'll never will.'

Martha looked at the game. Her hearth started to beat a lot faster then it did before. Robbie was right. If she didn't tell him today she never would. She had to. She saw Jack wave at her and waved back. She saw Kim look but he didn't seem mad. Maybe that was her imagination, she didn't know. Maybe he was really trying to be nice to her. Maybe.

Jack looked at the students. He saw Martha sitting there and he waved at her. He saw her smile and his hearth jumped up. But he wouldn't tell her. Somehow he had decided that he shouldn't tell her. The reason had gone lost on him. He turned back to his team. Tony was giving his last explanations.

Martha and Jack walked in Noah's bar. 'You sure you want me here?' 'Oh come on. For the thousand time it's ok.' 'But..' 'No. Stop talking.' 'You want a soda?' 'Yeah. Thanks.' Come on Martha. Tell him, now. She couldn't. I'll tell him later. I have all night. I have enough of time. 'Here. You ok?' 'Yeah. Thanks.' Jack looked at Martha and decided to be impulsive. 'You wanne dance?' 'What?' 'You wanne dance.' Martha smiled. 'Sure.' Jack grabbed her hands and started to dance with her.

An hour later Martha was walking out of the bathroom in Noah's bar. Kim showed up out of nowhere. 'I need to talk to you.' 'Why?' 'Relax, I'm not going to do anything. Just need to talk to you about something. Are you going to tell Jack?' 'Tell him what?' 'That I tried to...' 'No. I'm not. Because I don't want to ruin your friendship. Can I go now?' Martha walked away. 'I know you like him.' 'How do you know that?' 'It's kinda obvious. Don't get your hopes up.' 'What?' 'He's never going to go out with you. Never. You two are from two different worlds, you'll never fit together. Not saying that to hurt you, just trying to tell you the truth. He...It's just to different.' Martha turned around and ran away. Kim smiled. Nobody said no to Kim Hyde. Nobody.

Martha sat down next to Jack. She felt bad. Really bad. Of course Kim was right. Jack could never like her. Never. They were to different. 'Hey you ok?' 'Yeah. I'm fine.' 'Sure? You look I don't know upset.' 'I'm fine.' 'OK.' Jack looked at Martha. She seemed really upset. He wanted to say something, but he didn't know what was wrong.

Jack was walking her home. She knew that if she didn't tell him now she would never do it. But she could still hear Kim's words in her head. He will never date you. You're to different. She had to tell him. He was nice. He would not laugh with her. He wouldn't.

'Jack I have to tell you something.' 'Ok.' Martha just looked at him. She said nothing. 'You planning on saying something. Or do you want me to guess?' 'No. I have to tell you something.' 'Ok. Go ahead.' 'I like you.' 'Of course you're my friend.' 'No. I mean I really really like you. Like like.' Jack didn't expected this. He just stood there shocked. 'Say something. Anything.' 'Euhm...Why...I mean..you shouldn't...euhm...' 'I'm sorry.' Martha turned around in tears and ran away. 'No...Martha...wait...I didn't mean.'

Martha ran into her room and fell on her bed. Crying. Kim had been right,she should have never told him. She guessed she was luchy he didn't laugh with her. He seemed so shocked, like he couldn't believe it. Why why did she tell him?

Jack walked into his room and fell on his bed. Idiot. He hit his head against the wall. 'Idiot. Idiot. Why, did you say that. Why. You should have just told her. Idiot. How could he have been so stupid. He really hurted her. He really did. He wanted to tell her what he felt but it didn't seem right. He couldn't think of anything to say at the moment and he had managed to do everything wrong.

[martha-jack]

OMG he almost kissed her

awww he hoped she didnt notice

still a excellent fic love it, please update soon

[EmmaLovesJack]

aww she told him, fab update more soon

[Barbara]

I really thought Kim meant it when he apologized but I was wrong.

Why does Martha keep on listening to Kim? Luckily, she still told Jack how she felt.

Jack, you're an idiot! The answer you had to give was really simple: "I like you too"! Or you should have kissed her.

More please.

[pamy]

Chapter 19 : voice in your head

Jack woke up the next morning feeling really bad. It took him a couple of seconds to remember what had happened yesterday but then it all came back to him. He remembered how Martha had ran away from him. Crying. He had to fix it. He had to make her feel better. All he had to do was tell her the truth. That's how simple it was right?

Martha looked in the mirror. Her eyes were red from all the crying. Why had she told him last night? She knew he wouldn't like her. She knew it but she told him anyway. Why? She should have just listened to Kim. She sat down on the bed. She could just take it back. BUt he wouldn't believe that. It was to late. She had ruined everything.

Jack was sitting ont he beach just staring at the ocean. Kim sat down next to him. 'What's up?' 'Martha.' Kim sighed. Now what. 'What about her?' 'She told me last night she likes me.' 'WHy are you telling me this?' 'You're my best friend right. Shouldn't you just help me then?' 'What did you do?' 'I jsut said something. But it was the wrong thing she ran away crying.' 'Well better to tell her inmeadiatly, right.' 'You don't understand. I like her, I do.' 'You wanne drag her into our world? You saw what one night did to her. You really wanne do that?'

Martha walked around. Robbie jumped up behind her, just as usual. 'Hey. You ok?' 'No. I told him, last night.' 'He didn't take it well did he?' 'No. He said I shoulnd't. He asked me why. He...' Robbie put his hand on martha's shoulder. 'Hey. It's going to be ok. At least he's your friend.' 'Is he? You sure?' Robbie didn't answer. He had no answers for her. He couldn't even answer his own question about his relationship with Tasha. How could he help her?

Tasha found Jack sitting on the beach. Kim had just left. She had talked to him and he had told her what had happened. How could Jack have been so stupid? Why not just tell her he liked her? Why make it so complicated. Boys. They are unbelievable. She sat down nex to him. Not sure what she wanted to say to him. She wanted to help, but she wasn't even fully sure why he wouldn't just tell her.

'You ok.' 'No. Should I have told her?' 'Yes.' 'No.' 'Why not?' 'Because it's better like this. I know she's hurting right now, but she'll get over that. She doesn't deserve me. She doesn't deserve to be dragged into our world. She doesn't. She has had enough trouble, enough pain in her life. She doens't deserve to be in our world. With Kim? With the guys? She'll just get hurt.' 'Jack that's ridicolous. Even if that's true, don't you think not telling her is worse. For the two of you?' Jack sighed. 'She doesn't deserve to be hurt again. She doesn't. I wanne protect her from it.'

Jack stood up and started to walk away. He did wanted to protect her. She didn't deserve to be hurt again. Not by Kim. Not by him. Not by anyone. Tasha walked behind him. 'Jack stop.' 'What.' 'I wanne ask you a question. Do you really meant that?' 'What?' 'Do you really wanne protect her or is it because you hear Kim's voice in your head. Telling you she's not good enough.' 'That's ridicolous.' 'Is it?' 'Tell me something Tash. You don't go out with Robbie in public, only in his or your house. Is that because it's new and you don't wanne jinx it, or because you hear Kim's voice in your head.' 'I do go out with him.' 'Really have you introduced him to Brooke? You know you're best friend?' Tasha fell silent. She didn't know what to say. He was right. 'See we're not so different.' Jack turned around and started to walke away. 'Jack. For what it's worth, I think she would be lucky to have somebody like you. Verry lucky.'

Martha stood outside Noah's bar. Looking at the ocean. She thought it was beautiful. But it hurted so much. She should have never told him. Now he was not even her friend. The pain she was feeling right now was so much different then the pain she felt when her parents died. She couldn't have avoided that pain. She could have avoided this one.

Jack walked out of Noah's bar with Kim and the rest of the team. He saw her standing there with his back to him. He turned around to look at his teammates. He sighed. He really liked her but...she really didn't deserve to be in this world. She didn't. He wanted to protect her.

Tasha was with the cheerleaders. She saw Jack look at Martha and she sighed. Jack was right. She wasn't ashamed of Robbie, she really loved being with him. But there was something about exposing him to this world. Dragging him towards Kim Hyde and his buddies. It seemed like something they didn't deserve. But, she wondered, what would hurt more?

Robbie saw Tasha standing between her friends. He knew he shouldn't go there, but he wanted to be close to her so badly. He wondered if she was ashamed of him. Was that why she wouldn't introduce him to his friends? He saw Martha standing there and wondered. What was worse, being like Martha. Rejected. Or being like him. Accepted but not completely.

[martha-jack]

aww this is sad he wants to protect her

hate kim, he should just bugger off

please update soon

[pamy]

I thought I'd post the next chapter. I don't have school right now, I have a lot of time.

Chapter 20: the rain

Jack still stood there looking at Martha. He wanted to do someting to make her feel better. But what could he do? He heart Kim talking to him, but he didn't take in the words. It was as if they were standing on different planets. He turned to Kim. 'I gotta go.' 'Come on Holden.' 'I just gotta talk to her.' 'Fine. We'll wait her. Hurry.'

Martha stared at the ocean. She felt somebody behind her. Turning around she found herself face to face with Jack. He was the last person she wanted to talk to. She didn't want to, not right now. She was still hurting to much. She looked at Noah's bar. She saw all of his friends standing there. Kim was looking directly at her. A terrifying thought just her. Had it all been a joke? Did he not wanted to be her friend.

'Martha. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say that last night. It's just. You caught me by surprise and I didn't know what to say.' 'What, you needed to talk to somebody first?' 'Something like that.' 'You're all the same aren't you. You're not different then Kim. What did you enjoy seeing me hurt. Seeing me cry?' 'Martha ofcourse not. You're my friend..' 'Am I? You really care that much. I don't believe you. Leave me alone, please.' She turned around.

She wanted to get as far away from him as possible. He didn't care about her. Maybe as a friend, but that hadn't stopped him from hurting her. She wanted to get far away from her. If her brother would wake up that minute, she would go home inmeadiatly. He didn't care. He didn't.

Jack looked at her. She seemed so broken. So hurted. He wanted to say something. He glanced back. He saw Kim standing there. He wanted to protect her from him, but he also wanted to hold her in his arms. What was he supposed to do? What? He looked at Martha and remembered something his dad had told him a long time ago. Sometimes you should just listen to your heart, and forget what your head is telling you. Listen to your heart.

Jack grabbed Martha's arm just before she could get away from her. She turend around to face him. She didn't want to talk to him right now, couldn't he just understand that? He saw the determened look on her face. He knew she didn't wanted to talk, but he had to tell her. The truth right. Listen to your heart. And his heart was just screaming one thing.

'What, Jack what do yo...' She never finished the sentence. Before she knew what was happening he had already kissed her. Surpiresed she closed her eyes. What was going on? She put her hands on his shoulders not wanting him to stop. She felt his arm on her back. He pulled her closer to him.

The kiss was nice and gentle. She had only been kissed once, by Kim. This was totally different. Kim's kiss had been rough and hurtfull. He wanted something from her. Jack's kiss was different. He just wanted her close to him. He liked her. She could feel it. Unbelievable.

Jack pulled away first. He looked into her beautiful eyes. He had wanted to do this for so long. 'You still wanne go.' 'Not really no.' He smiled. His smile overpowered her, just like usual. 'Didn't think so.' Jack moved forwards again and captured her lips in a kiss again.

Kim was just looking at them. He couldn't believe Jack would do that. Why would he kiss her? How could he even like her. She was just another stupid girl. He still couldn't believe it. Tasha looked at Jack and Martha. They looked so good together. She smiled. She was glad that Jack had listened to her advice. She saw Robbie looking at Jack and Martha. Maybe she should listen to his?

Robbie saw Jack and Martha kissing. Well at least that turned out alright, he thought. He saw Tasha arrive close to him. 'Hey.' 'Robbie Can I ask you a question?' 'Yeah.' 'Do you think I hide you from my friends?' 'Honeslty? Yeah.' Tasha looked at him. She saw he was hurted. She smiled at him. 'I don't want to hide.' Tasha kissed him. She didn't care everybody could see her.

Kim saw Tasha kiss robbie and was shocked. Unbelievable, had the whole world gone crazy? Carla smiled, looking at the two couples. But her smile faded when she saw the look on Kim's face. This wasn't going to end good. Not good at all. Suddenly out of the blue the sky broke open and it started to rain.

Jack was still kissing Martha. He felt the rain fall on him, but he didn't care. He didn't care if he would catch a codl or something worse. He didn't want to stop kissin Martha. He wanted to stay like this forever. Martha felt the rain fall down to. Jack was a great kisser, she never wanted to stop. But she had to. She simply needed air. Soflty she pulled away from him.

He smiled at her. She was beautiful. His hearth was beating verry fast. She was shaking. Probably because it was cold. 'Maybe we should go inside.' He made to let go of her and go inside. 'No.' She grabbed him harder. 'Are you afraid that if I let you go, I will dissapear?' 'Yeah.' 'I won't.' Martha just looked at him. 'It's cold.' 'Holden!' Jack heard Kim scream. He was probably not going to be happy. 'What on earth do you think you're doing?' Most of the team that stould around him agreed. Two of them didn't. 'Hyde?' 'Yeah.' 'Shut up!' Jack captured Martha's lips in yet another kiss.

Slowely Tasha pulled away from Robbie. 'Come on.' Tasha grabbed Robbie's had and ran towards the cheerleaders. Now or never. 'Hey Brooke?' 'Yeah?' 'There's somebody I want you to meet. This is Robbie. My boyfriend. Robbie this is Brooke. My best friend.' Tasha held her breath. Now she would now the truth. Was Brooke really the friend she had always thought she was? Brooke smiled. 'Hey. Nice to meet you.' Robbie laughed and grabbed her hand. The cheerleaders suddenly surounded her. All except three.

A couple of minutes later they were all four sittin on a couch in Noah's bar. Robbie was holding Tasha. He felt so good. So happy. Now he was fully in her world. And her best friend seem to like him. That was good. Tasha smiled at Robbie. She felt good close to him. She felt good knowing that her best friend and boyfriend got along. That's good.

Jack had his arms around Marhta's waist. Her head was resting on his chest. He felt so good with her close to him. He wondered why he had ever considered not to be close to her. Not to kiss her. He knew that Kim was probably mad at him. But he didn't care. Not as long that she was still close to him. He placed a soft kiss on her hair. He wanted to stay here forever.

Martha felt his arms around her. He was pulling her closer. She could hear his hearthbeat. SHe felt so safe with him close to her. Like nothing could go wrong. She had not felt this happy in a long time. All she needed to be completely happy now were her brothers. But for now she was good close to Jack. She looked up. He smiled at her. She felt so good.