What May Come

[caroline77]

I am so glad that Charlie is starting to get better. Glad Morag could see what Charlie saw in Brax even though she probably doesn't agree with their relationship. Looking forward to what happens next.

[faith406]

Chapter 18

Brax

14 days 18 hours 16 minutes 30 seconds

Although it felt like a lifetime that was how long it took to see the slight flutter of Charlie’s eyes open.

It took another 2 days until Charlie’s eyes stayed opened but as soon as that happened we were rushed out for the doctors to do tests.

It was another 1 hour 34 minutes 8 seconds until were allowed back into the room.

Time seemed so important now, time I didn’t want to spend away from Charlie. We wasted so much time riding our rollercoaster, a year wasted for us to finally get our act together then have it ruined. As we were finally allowed back into her room to be greeted with the beautiful sight of Charlie with her eyes open I decided that I wasn’t wasting any more time. I loved this woman, more than I could ever imagine and I was never going to go a day without her in my life.

Ruby

Being rushed out of Charlie’s room was such a horrible feeling. Seeing her eyes open and stay open made my heart burst. I didn’t want to leave her to come back to see them closed again. I just wanted to stay there with her and get on the bed and hold her. I’ve missed Charlie’s presence so much; I’ve missed having her hug me. I’ve even missed the lectures. All in all I’ve missed the unique way she loves me and the different ways she shows me.

As me and Brax were allowed to go back into her room I was excited to finally have my mum back.

Charlie

As I started to regain my senses I could hear low voices around me and a constant beeping sound. I slowly opened my eyes squinting as the light was too much for my eyes. I could see a faint outline of someone by my side and as my eyes began to get focused I saw that it was Brax.

“Oh my God, she’s awake” I heard someone say

As a head came into my line of sight I saw a dishevelled Ruby move beside Brax. Trying to speak, that’s when I realised that I had something in my throat. I felt my heart begin to panic as I felt so constricted. The next thing I know Brax and Ruby are being taken from my room and I have doctors and nurses around me prodding and poking me.

I was felt more relaxed when they removed the tube from my throat, my body ached and felt sore but the meds from the doctor helped mask the pain.

When they had finished running their tests I had a moment to think, my mind was so fuzzy and messed up but as everything came to me I felt that pain again. But this time it was worse than before this pain I felt in my heart, it enveloped me so much that my tears made me gasp. As my hand went to my stomach, I turned my head as I saw Sid lead Brax and Ruby back into the room. Not even thinking about the two people in the room who I hadn’t even told that I was pregnant, I asked the question I deep down already knew the answer to.

“Sid my baby, I lost my baby didn’t I?” I asked trying to keep a hold of my emotions but failing miserably

“Charlie, I’m so sorry but there wasn’t anything we could do” Sid told me in a very sympathetic tone.

As I heard his words, the confirmation I was so scared to hear but needed to know, I broke down in tears with my hand on my stomach. I cried about what Jake had done to me, I cried for the baby I had lost. The baby I so wanted but was taken from me. As Brax and Ruby rushed to my side I curled into myself as best I could and broke down in a torrent of tears.

As I cried I started to fell panicked, I tried to calm myself but the pain of my emotions felt like they were dragging me down. I started to gasp for breath as my head started to pound, I could hear Brax asking Sid what was wrong as I struggled for breath through my tears.

“I think she’s having a panic attack, nurse come over here please. Charlie, Charlie you need to look at me your having a panic attack. You need to try taking deep breaths”

I heard Sid but I couldn’t help the panic I felt within myself, I started to really panic.

“Ok, would you two leave the room and just give us space to work”

“She’ll be ok right” Ruby asked Sid

“It’s nothing we can’t deal with but I feel it’s best if you leave the room. Both of you”

“Come on Brax, she’s going to be alright” Ruby said to him has she took his hand and led him outside.

“Charlie just keep taking those deep breaths like I showed you.”

Sid

As soon as I stepped out of Charlies room I was confronted with questions from the anxious people outside. As I closed the door behind me I faced Brax, Ruby, Casey, Morag, Leah, Alf, Bianca, Liam, Elijah and Heath.

“How is she Sid” Ruby asked

“Physically she is slowly healing, but mentally….. Charlie as been through a very traumatic experience adding in the loss of her baby it triggered her to have a panic attack.”

“But she’s alright now” Morag asked Sid

“We managed to help her regulate her breathing so yes for the moment she is ok”

“Can we go in and see her” Brax asked me

“Yeah but she’s sleeping at the moment. Charlie was still very distressed so we’ve given her a sedative to help her sleep. I want you all to be prepared for the road ahead because it is not going to be easy. I can help heal the physical wounds but Charlie is going to need our help and support to help heal the emotional scars.”

[Inactive User]

Fab chapter! Whoa glad Charlie is waking up at last. More soon please xx

[JosieTash]

Three AMAZNG updates !!!!!, especially ......

 Today they decided to take Charlie off her life support machine. Ruby was on edge and looked considerably drawn out,

 When I reached the hospital the sight that greeted me was heart breaking, Brax looked so drawn out and tired. Ruby looked weak and tired and her eyes were red and puffy from crying.

 Gone was the vibrant loving women who I had shared so much with, the giggly funny best friend who’d I’d shared my secret’s with over red wine.

 Sitting in the waiting room my heart breaks that little bit more seeing a lost Ruby going into Charlie’s room. No one deserves this, to lose their mother in a senseless attack engineered by revenge.

 I don’t want this to be goodbye, I feel like we’re really beginning to get better with each other. I know I’ve been a handful in the past and am very stubborn and strong minded but I get it from you. I think that’s why we clash the way we do, we’re so alike. Please don’t leave me, I still need you. I’ll always need you in my life, you’re my mum.”

 “The doors locked, Brax has put something against it”

“Brax” Sid called again from the door

“Leave us alone, I’m not going to let you take her from me” Brax shouted

 “Brax please listen to Heath, we’re all scared. She had so much faith in you Brax, she believed in you. Now it’s your turn to believe that she’ll be strong enough to get through it. Don’t let her down, not now” Casey tried hoping that they were getting through to Brax.

 what if she’s in pain and we’re making it worse by making her hold on. I don’t want her hurt anymore, if she wants to go………. If she wants to go then we need to be strong for her.”

 2 days since I saw the melt down of all melt downs. I was never supportive of Charlie’s relationship with Darryl Braxton and from the outcome of her being involved with him I was right to be worried about the repercussions of being with this man would have on her career and personal life. But after his display it would be hard to doubt that he loved her.

I don’t think I ever thought I would see the sign of a broken man in Darryl Braxton. I’ve known loss, even more recently with Ross. Even now it still hurts that he’s not here with us and I miss him so dearly every day. By some miracle we were blessed with the reprieve of that day not being Charlie’s last. As they switched of the machines it felt like hours rather than minutes that we had to wait to hear the faint beat of Charlie breathing for herself. She wasn’t out of the woods yet but she was breathing by herself, she had to stay on some of the machines so her body wouldn’t tire out but we were all given a renewed lease of hope that maybe just maybe she would make I back to us.

 Brax had finally left the hospital a few times since the whole incident but only to have a shower and get a change of clothes. Ruby was no better but Brax would persist with her to look after herself even though he wasn’t doing the same. Ruby was the only one who could really get him to take time out to eat something; we could all see a bond growing between the two of them.

 I could still see the faded stain of Charlie’s blood on the floor of the living room which sent tingles through my spine. Thinking back to years past to when Sarah Lewis held us all hostage in this very house, she almost killed Peter in this room. She killed Noah on my door step in cold blood just like that sick man did to Charlie. As I feel a gush of emotions come over me I break down in tears, how did this year turn out so bad. The start of the year with Ruby, Charlie and Morag losing Ross, Thabo dying, me losing the baby, Miles leaving, Irene’s cancer and now Charlie being shot fighting for her life and losing her baby. Couldn’t we be given a break just once, hadn’t we already been through enough to be given a reprieve.

 The WHOLE Brax sequence in Chapter 18 !!!! …..

 ALL of Ruby’s too !!!!!!

 As a head came into my line of sight I saw a dishevelled Ruby move beside Brax.

 Not even thinking about the two people in the room who I hadn’t even told that I was pregnant, I asked the question I deep down already knew the answer to.

“Sid my baby, I lost my baby didn’t I?” I asked trying to keep a hold of my emotions but failing miserably

“Charlie, I’m so sorry but there wasn’t anything we could do” Sid told me in a very sympathetic tone.

As I heard his words, the confirmation I was so scared to hear but needed to know, I broke down in tears with my hand on my stomach. I cried about what Jake had done to me, I cried for the baby I had lost. The baby I so wanted but was taken from me. As Brax and Ruby rushed to my side I curled into myself as best I could and broke down in a torrent of tears.

As I cried I started to fell panicked, I tried to calm myself but the pain of my emotions felt like they were dragging me down. I started to gasp for breath as my head started to pound, I could hear Brax asking Sid what was wrong as I struggled for breath through my tears.

“I think she’s having a panic attack, nurse come over here please. Charlie, Charlie you need to look at me your having a panic attack. You need to try taking deep breaths”

 I want you all to be prepared for the road ahead because it is not going to be easy. I can help heal the physical wounds but Charlie is going to need our help and support to help heal the emotional scars.”

[mizziette]

Loved that whole part at the start about time. Great update

[AvrilRP212]

Great couple of Chapters. Update soon please.

[soph1303]

Got so behind on this story!!

Please update really soon

[~Zoe~]

Great chapers.

[faith406]

Hey guys thanks for reviewing it means allot to hear your comments and to know you’re enjoying. I am finding it a bit hard to write at the moment and lost some of my motivation. That being said I do not want to leave this fic unfinished so am still going to trudge on with it and hope you guys keep enjoying it and reading. Please bear with me (fluttering eyelashes) Thanks, hope you enjoy this chapter.

Chapter 19

Brax and Ruby spent the night sitting in Charlie’s hospital room thinking over what Sid had said about Charlie’s emotional state.

It wasn’t until mid-afternoon that Charlie started to stir awake. Has her eyes slowly opened she took in her surroundings and then laid her eyes on Brax and Ruby who were sitting in a chair each on either side of her bed. They both looked up with big smiles on their faces, both glad to see her wake. The road ahead would be hard but they were both just happy that Charlie was still with them.

“Hey” Brax said as her gently stroked Charlie’s hair

Not being able to contain herself Ruby embraced her mum the best she could and cried.

“I’m so happy your awake, we were all really scared. I love you so much” Ruby said as she tried to contain her emotions.

Charlie squeezed Ruby’s hand and gave her a slight smile in response, words failing her as she again felt the ache in her heart. Charlie took her other hand and rubbed at her stomach feeling tears again spring to her eyes. As she closed her eyes to try stop the assault of tears Ruby and Brax glanced each other. Seeing the worry in Ruby’s eyes Brax silently gestured for her to leave the room. As Ruby got up she leaned over to Charlie and kissed her on the cheek telling her she would be back soon.

The room was silent as Ruby made her exit. Brax decided to get up and sat himself carefully on the edge of Charlie’s bed wanting to be as close to her as he could get. Feeling his weight shift on the bed Charlie opened her eyes which released the tears she had so desperately been trying to hold.

“Charlie….” Brax said as Sid walked into her hospital room

“I see your awake, sorry Brax could you just give us a moment I just need to run some tests.”

Reluctantly getting off the bed Brax leaned forward and placed a kiss on Charlie’s lips

“I’ll just be outside” he told her as he left the room

As Brax left the room he was greeted by the sight of Bianca, Liam, Heath, Ruby, Casey, Morag and Leah.

As he approached them Ruby spoke up.

“Did you get to speak to her?”

“No, as I was about to Sid came in and asked me to leave. When he’s done I’ll go back in and try again. Rubes to be honest I don’t really know what to say.”

“I’m sure you’ll think of something, just say how you feel. You both lost this baby even though you only found out recently you both are in pain about it. We’re all here for mum but you were both this babies parents, maybe both of you dealing with the loss together will help her.” Ruby tried to explain the rambling thoughts in her head to Brax

“You’re a smart girl Rubes” Brax said kissing the top of her head

“We have to help her, she looked so sad”

“We will Rubes, I promise”

“I’d like to help as well” Bianca said. She so desperately wanted to be there for her best friend but due to the icy nature of their friendship she wasn’t sure Brax would let her.

“I’ll ask her, it’s up to Charlie” Brax said looking at Bianca. He still felt angry at her for the way that she had treated Charlie but he knew that the choice was Charlie’s now that she was awake to make it.”

“Did she say anything at all while you was in there with her” Morag asked

“Nothing, she was just silent. Leah maybe you could try talk to her as well” Brax answered

“I’ll try but what I went through and what Charlie’s going through is different. Our pain may be coming from the loss of a baby but I had a miscarriage, someone killed her baby. The thoughts going through her head are going to be completely different from what I had going on in mine. She may not even feel that she can relate to my situation.”

“She just looked so lost, her eyes they were so sad and lost” Ruby said trying to explain

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As Sid and the nurses ran the tests Charlie just lay motionless only reacting to the requests from Sid or the nurse.

“Ok, all done I’ll just go get Ruby and Brax” Sid said as he went to leave the room. He was stopped in his tracks by Charlie’s voice.

“No!” was all she said looking ahead at nothing in particular.

“Pardon?” Sid asked

“I don’t want to see them. I don’t want any visitors, can I just be left alone please” Charlie requested trying to hold onto her emotions as her voice started to crack.

“Ok, shall I tell them to come back in a couple of hours?”

“No! I don’t want to see them at all.”

“Charlie, I think it would do you good to have your friends and family around you right now” Sid said trying to make her see sense.

As a few tears managed to escape Charlie angrily wiped them away.

“Sid please, no one. I don’t want to have any visitors, it’s my choice and it’s what I want.”

Seeing the distress on her face Sid decided to follow her wishes for now. As he braced himself to face the people that wouldn’t be happy to hear of Charlie’s decision he walked out through the doors.

As he exited the doors he saw Brax heading his way to go into Charlie’s room.

“Can I talk to you for a moment” Sid asked

“Yeah, is everything alright with mum” Ruby asked looking worried

“ummmm she made a request before I left her room”

“Ok, what is it? Anything she wants we’ll go get it for her” Bianca said eager to help

“It’s not that kind of request, Charlie asked that she be left alone.”

Seeing Brax start to get angry Casey tried to defuse the situation.

“Brax, you and Ruby can use the time to go get something to eat and cleaned up then come back to see her in the evening.”

“The thing is Charlie doesn’t want any visitors at all at any time. Right now she requests that she be left alone.” Sid said trying to make them understand.

“No! No! You said yourself that she needs our support to help her get through this.” Brax said getting angry at the thought of Charlie in the room on her own crying.

“I know what I said and I still stand by it but I have to respect my patient’s request.”

“Well it’s stupid, nah no I’m not letting her go through this on her own.” Brax said moving towards her room.

Moving in front of Brax, Sid tried his best to stop Brax from advancing into her room.

“Brax listen to me, you don’t want to go in there. Just let her have tonight, don’t push her. I will try to speak to her tomorrow and get her to at least have you and Ruby to visit.”

“I don’t like the thought of her being all alone. Sid will someone check on her to make sure she’s alright through the night” Ruby asked very reluctant to leave Charlie all alone but not wanting to make her emotional state any worse than it already was.

“We will check on her regularly and I will make it my top priority to speak to her again tomorrow about her decision.”

“You’ll call us straight away if anything changes through the night, I don’t care what time it is”

“Brax we’ll take good care of her. You and Ruby have been here all night, go rest and get something to eat and give her the space she wants” Sid said trying to calm their worries about leaving Charlie alone.

“We’ll be back in the morning” Brax told Sid has he put his arm around Ruby and led her out of the hospital.

Upon leaving the hospital Ruby had decided to go back home with Brax and Casey much to the protests of Morag who though it would be best to go back to the caravan park with her.

Heath had gone to pick up Darcy and take her to the beach to spend some time with her so it was just Casey, Brax and Ruby that went back to the house.

Not much was said as they entered the house, Ruby and Brax both exhausted by the events that had been going on. As Brax and Ruby sat on the couch Casey went to heat up some food for them but both Brax and Ruby sat at the table quietly not really eating much. Giving up with making them eat Casey took Ruby to his room to try and get some sleep and suggested Brax to do the same. The rest of the evening passed in a blur, Casey was trying his best to stay strong and supportive for Brax and Ruby but he was at a loss and beginning to feel drained.

Both Brax and Ruby had a restless sleep tossing and turning as their minds couldn’t switch of from thinking about Charlie, the shooting and the baby she had lost. Getting out of bed Brax gave up trying to sleep and went to get a glass of water. Deciding not to go back to his room Brax sat on the sofa in the dark staring into space. That’s how Ruby found him as she went to go to the kitchen to get something to drink.

“Hey! What you doing up?” Ruby asked whilst going to sit next to Brax

“Couldn’t sleep” Brax replied

“Likewise, everything keeps going around in my head.”

“Yeah, I know the feeling”

“How are you feeling?” Ruby asked Brax

“Shouldn’t I being asking you that?” Brax replied

“I think it’s something we can both be asking each other” Ruby replied

“So……. How are you feeling?”

“I asked first Brax”

“Yeah but I’m still trying to figure out an answer”

“Umm, okay. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy that Charlie’s woken up….. I’m just really sad as well. It’s not been the joyous occasion I expected it to be. Jake’s really messed things up and I’m scared things will never be the same again. She looked so lost and sad and now she doesn’t want to see me. Why doesn’t she want to see me Brax, I can’t be there for her if she won’t let me see her.” Tears started to form in Ruby’s eyes as she became upset by the fact Charlie wouldn’t let them be there for her or comfort her.

“I don’t know Ruby, I’m asking myself the same thing. I think her grief is blinding her right now. Maybe Sid can get through to her.”

“I hope so, I miss her so much. All those times in her room holding her and not feeling her arms around me in return, it chipped at my heart. Charlie’s always been there for me, her cuddles are the best. When she as her arms around me it’s like she’s letting me know she’s there and I’m not alone”

“I’m not your mum but will a cuddle from me do.”

“Yeah” Ruby managed to say through her tears as she moved closer to Brax and let him engulf her in a hug.

“I’m not going anywhere, me, you and your mum we’re going to get through this it’s just going to take some time.”

The two sat in silence in the dark, Ruby with her head resting on Brax’s shoulder whilst he had his arm around her. After several minutes of comfortable silence Ruby broke it.

“So I spilled, now it’s your turn. You never told me how you were feeling”

“I don’t really do the talking thing. Your mums the only person I’ve had to really open myself up to and right now she doesn’t even want to see me let alone talk to me”

“Brax I just think we should try to get stuff off our chests, saves us from building it all up. We’ll be better to help Charlie is we at least sort out our own issues”

“I honestly don’t know how I feel Rubes. There’s so much going on in my head to try to voice it seems so hard right now. We’ve lost a baby; Charlie died and was brought back to us. I’m sad for her and that she’s feeling the way she is but I’m angry at her for shutting us out, for shutting ME out. I’m angry at Heath, at Hammer and Jake and his stupid gang and the boys and most of all I’m angry at myself. How did we get here, everything’s so broken, I thought when she woke up things would be alright but they’re not. Everything’s still broken.”

[soph1303]

Yay an update *does happy dance* !!

I love this story so don't worry, I'll bear with you !!

I totally get why Charlies so hesitant to let people in all, but all the same she's going to have to if she wants to move through this!!

The bit at the end with ruby and Brax, was both beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time !!

More soon please