Ashirr-Leigh Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 Good! I don't want to come across really cold and unfeeling and I'm sure it sounds like that but it's not. I have so little recollection of my mum as 'mum', hardly any of my thoughts about her are good ones so it's hard to get overly upset.
MarMar Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 I don't think you're being cold at all, but that might have something to do with how similar our situations are.
Pierced Musie Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 You aren't cold. If you were cold hearted you wouldn't feel anything but it's obvious you are feeling something.
Ashirr-Leigh Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 Thanks, guys. My older brother and sister are alot more upset because they knew her better but, after she had my little sister, everything just went downhill. She got severe post natal depression and never recovered from it, she was in and out of mental hospitals. Infact, it was mental illness that ended everything for her because she took her own life, along with her boyfriend and another friend.. I guess a suicide pact or whatever. Sorry for sharing the life story!
MarMar Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 That's heavy! Let me know if you ever want to talk.
Ashirr-Leigh Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 Thanks, Majohn. Might take you up on that some time. It's nice to know that you guys are here to talk to because even though I don't actually know any of you, that's sometimes easier. Does that make sense?
MarMar Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 Very. I have 3 groups on my Live Journal. One for people who live near me, who I encounter on a weekly basis, one for the rest, and one for my boyfriend. I don't want everyone to read everything.
Ashirr-Leigh Posted December 4, 2005 Report Posted December 4, 2005 That's very true. Well, thanks anyway, means alot that someone understands!
Ms Becky Posted December 5, 2005 Report Posted December 5, 2005 *big!huggles* I'm really sorry honey, and I really mean that. Re. you not being close etc... I don't have any experience with anything like that, the only thing I can say is that however you choose to react is okay. There's no right or wrong with these kind of things, you couldn't possibly know how you'd feel about it before it happened. Don't ever appologise for how you feel. The only thing that would be wrong would be to convince yourself that you feel differently, because that wouldn't be true to yourself. I'll stop before I ramble too much, but like MaJohn, if you ever want to rant at someone, feel free to e-mail me or something.
Ashirr-Leigh Posted December 5, 2005 Report Posted December 5, 2005 Cheers.. aww, everyone's being so kind! Yeah, I'm sorry too that we never made up and things but I guess that's just the way it was. I wasn't ready to talk to her and forcing myself to do it would have been stupid. At least she didn't die a painful death, I don't think so anyway, and I guess it's what she wanted.
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