emmasi Posted October 1, 2009 Report Posted October 1, 2009 My learner's permit expires in 16 days and I still suck at driving. I've booked a test on the day it expires anyway just in case, by some miracle, I fluke a pass, but I really really doubt it. I'm nervous as hell around strangers (eg, some random testing person) and I can't risk taking a Valium before the test because it might make me too "calm" to drive... I'm also terrible at parking! $50 to find out how much I suck. Or, worst case scenario, $50 to become so panicked behind the wheel that I lose all sense of perception and reason and kill a bunch of people. Great. Juuuust great. I swear to God, if I fail this test, I'm not going for my learner's license again until next year. I just can't handle the stress of doing that AND trying to finish uni at the same time. Ugh. Just UGH! >__< And you know what else? These jellybeans are yucky and are making me sick.
Lesley Bee Posted October 1, 2009 Report Posted October 1, 2009 I have a viral infection and have to take antibiotics just great.
~Zoe~ Posted October 1, 2009 Report Posted October 1, 2009 I have a viral infection and have to take antibiotics just great. Hope you feel well soon Lesley
emmasi Posted October 1, 2009 Report Posted October 1, 2009 Mum just woke me up at 8.30am on a sleep-in day to tell me that she's left money on the table for me to book a driving test today. I told her last night that I booked the earliest available time already, and THAT's in another town! Besides which, even if there was a spot available, I wouldn't be able to book it online on the day of the test, and I've tried calling the RTA twice - all prompts and queues and on-hold music - so THAT'S not happening. This is all so incredibly stressful. I don't even want to drive! I can't afford a car. After uni, I won't need a car. At the moment I'm on so many prescription drugs that I probably shouldn't be driving anyway - I mean, I wouldn't drive on them if I felt like I was impaired, but IF I did crash, and they did a blood test and found all that in my system I bet I'd be screwed! F*** driving. Years of begging friends and family to put their time, patience, and cars on the line, stressing yourself out to the point of panic attacks and tears, putting yourself and everyone else on the road at risk with shameful incompetence, when even after all the time you've had to learn you STILL don't get the hang of something as simple as TURNING ON THE HEADLIGHTS or TURNING OFF THE CAR! What the fudge is that? Honestly! I'm 24 years old and I can't remember to turn a car off before stepping out of it??? I HATE HOW F***ING RETARDED I AM! And I used that in the literal sense of the word: "underdeveloped; intellectually or emotionally challenged." That's me! That's what you'd call a 24 year old who is AFRAID of strangers - literally afraid... I had to pop a Valium the other day just because someone I didn't know showed up at the pound where I was volunteering with my friend... Jesus Christ, that is NOT normal! I'll probably need to take one right now just THINKING about a f***ing driving test! There's no way in hell I'll pass it, and I'm not looking for people to say "Awww, sure you will kiddo!" because, as nice as that might be to hear, I KNOW it is a big steaming pile of B. S! God. A rant like that should be in the Support Thread. But I'm beyond help on this one so there's no point. I'm damned if I do (do take a Valium and be refused the test because I'm too "hopped up") and damned if I don't (don't take a Valium and get so panicked and stressed that I make stupid mistakes and inevitably cause an accident). Screw it, I'm taking the Valium. It's only 5mg and if I take it in the morning, any dangerous levels of "calmness" will have worn off by the time I have to do my test. Anyone else get the feeling that this post is going to be used as evidence in a court of law in about a month's time? Even if I do pass, I'm just 5kms away from losing my license again. Oh yes, P platers can lose their license for one speeding offense, apparently. Not that I would speed on purpose, but I am so incredibly stupid that I'd probably do it by accident and not notice until the cops - who have been signaling me for about five minutes to pull over - finally get my attention. What is the point? What is the point of going through all of this if it is that easy to have it all undone?
~Zoe~ Posted October 2, 2009 Report Posted October 2, 2009 I'm getting quite tired... should go to bed now I have read Jen's update on her fiction
~Zoe~ Posted October 2, 2009 Report Posted October 2, 2009 I was meant to be off out down town tonight with a friend, but I couldnt go as I didnt have any money on me, oh well... will be off down town and in the pub next weekend
Laura Posted October 3, 2009 Report Posted October 3, 2009 I have a job interview in just over an hour and I really don't want to go. There's not really any point cause I won't get the job cause they'll ask me stuff and I won't know what to say and just be like "I dunnoo" like last time.
Laura Posted October 3, 2009 Report Posted October 3, 2009 My interview went really badly today. And she said she'll call me on Friday to let me know if I have the job which is a definate no.
Georgia Posted October 4, 2009 Report Posted October 4, 2009 I have an infection, and have to take 11 tablets a day, as well as not eat various food groups, and I've been doing really well on it, but with dinner I had a slice of herb bread, and now my stomach is killing me
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